GingeOrCringe
Junior
- Apr 5, 2020
- 625
Day 1, 19:43
Lypky District, Kyiv
The winter night was frigid, and with all the blood seeping down his chest it felt even colder. In search of an exit wound, his Chief of Staff Yurik Horbulin had removed his jacket for him. He was asking Yushchenko something in an urgent tone, but the words passed through him just as easily as the bullet had. It was so difficult to stay awake.
They drifted around the icy corner of Instyutska Street and Shovkovchna. The red and blue lights of the police-escort strobed through the windows.
“You still with us?” Asked one of the Spetsnaz who had shoved him into the car. He was holding Horbulin’s plastic ID card over the wound in an attempt to stop any more air from entering the president’s chest cavity. A makeshift occlusive bandage. Over that he had a bundle of gauze retrieved from a first-aid kit stashed under one of the seats.
Yushchenko nodded between increasingly painful breaths. “Tired,” he said. The right side of his chest felt like it had been stuffed full of nails and burning coals. Later, medical personnel would find that the bullet had splintered a rib.
“Hang in there, we need you to stay awake a little longer.”
He wondered what would happen if he died. His first thoughts went to his wife and children, then to the country he’d be leaving them with. As Chairman of the Rada, the presidency would go to Kuchma—a man with motives as hazy as a cloud of smoke. Of course, even if they had sincere leadership, there was no guarantee the military would be able to subdue an insurrection if one did arise. They certainly couldn’t hold off an invasion by a red Russia, which seemed to be a greater possibility with every passing hour. So much for joint training exercises…
The driver stomped on the breaks, almost slamming into the cop car ahead of them as they fishtailed down the slush filled road.
“The fuck are you doing?” Horbulin shouted. He was holding one of those cellphones and nearly whipped it at Zharovskiy, their driver.
“There’s a car accident just before the intersection with Liuteranska,” Zharovskiy nodded at his radio as he threw the gear into reverse. “It’s going to be impossible to get passed, we gotta go another way.”
Wheels spinning on ice, so much energy spent to go nowhere.
Yushchenko had almost implemented military reforms to make Ukraine stronger, almost reunited Crimea with the Republic, almost obtained an apology from Russia for Holodomor… He had almost done so many things, but his presidency hadn’t actually changed anything, had it? Ukraine was still considered a provincial backwater, a runaway Russian vassal state, as unremarkable in the grand scheme of geopolitics as it was one-hundred years before. He wondered if they’d ever be considered a central beacon of civilization, or if they were just doomed to the margins of two competing worlds.
The Spetsnaz said something, but it was becoming difficult to focus. He felt like a short-circuiting computer. “We need you to stay awake," the guard repeated. “You can rest at the hospital, but not yet. There’s less than a kilometer to go, I promise.”
Yushchenko wasn't sure this man understood just how much he was asking. His eyes refused to stay open, he was cold, thirsty, and as the seconds ticked by the shock was wearing off and the pain increasing.
Horbulin snapped his phone closed. He said something about a hospital director, the holidays, all the snow. “We’re lucky Ukrainians are so willing to give blood.”
Yes, they'd always had people generous in giving that. In comparison, was staying awake really such a demand? He wasn't Pylyp Orlyk or Vladimir the Great, but someone needed to shepherd Ukraine away from the confines of corruption and authoritarianism towards greater liberty. It would be a lie to call the future bright--and there'd always be wolves like Symonenko lurking about--but they could at least keep the gate open to the West. As dim as prospects might seem, they could ensure life wasn't as dark as the past. Exhaustion gripped him as tightly as those Soviet-hardliners clung to their failed ideology. It would be so much easier to close his eyes and drift off, but how could he? He thought of that poem--the one his father, Khoruzhivka’s singular English teacher, had always repeated when he was tired. The man had used it as a crutch when he was conscripted into the Red Army, and later when the Nazis sent him to Flossenbürg.
The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.
Yushchenko looked to his Chief of staff. "Call Kuchma. Politely tell him--" he was interrupted by his own coughs and gasps. There was a metallic taste of blood in his mouth now, but Oleksandrivska Hospital was so close. "Tell him he can spend the New Year at his dacha. Neither Mariyinsky Palace nor the presidency will be vacant."